Happy Birthday, Mom!

Dear Mom,

Happy birthday! I know that where you are right now, birthdays are probably not such a big deal, but it helps me feel better to remember. Everyone in the family is doing really well, but you probably already know that too. I still miss you a lot and I wish a lot of things, but most of all I wish you could come visit me in Boston just for one day and play with G-Man and get to meet Diggity. As I have been watching him lately, I keep thinking of how you would say that every age was your favorite as I grew up. That you would keep thinking that this age was your favorite, but then I would get older and you'd think this new age was your favorite. I have been thinking that the past few weeks as I watch G-Man and his little personality developing and as he learns new signs and new words. It's so much fun. Thank you for instilling a love and desire for motherhood in me. I didn't realize I would love it this much. I think because I had to talk myself out of believing it would ever happen for me, I tried to find joy in other things and tell myself that it really didn't matter that much if I ever got to have a child of my own. And I was happy and I did feel joy, but it really pales in comparison to now. And I'm grateful for what I have gone through, because I think I appreciate my family so much more.

And now, I'm rambling. This is about your birthday.

I miss you. G-Man and I will send you a balloon today. Watch for it.

Love,
Macy

P.S. Thanks for the really awesome sunset in Maui on our last night there.

P.P.S. I know this sounds silly, but I keep thinking that with Grandma and Grandpa both there with you that they should throw you a really cool party to make up for your 16th birthday and when everyone forgot your birthday and you thought you were getting a surprise party but you started to cry because everyone forgot and they ran to get you a luggage set at the last minute. I know that's all water under the bridge and you all have more important things to worry about now, but I like the thought of you having a really amazing birthday party with friends and family around you.